Post by Azoto on Jun 28, 2011 6:46:13 GMT -5
(As a note, much like Ahiga's post, this is pretty much just an RP of one, that being me. More like.. a story of what's happening in Wachiwa-world! .. Ahaha. Uhm. Yeah, something like that.)
With Ikuna and Tala safe within the den (as it seems to have fallen upon Wachiwa to take care of the more motherly tasks of story telling, bath time, chewing their food up for them before they eat, and all of that), chewy made her way out of it into the night, and started walking, thoughtfully, never quite venturing to the borders of the Ute Lands, yet.. just walking, perhaps in half a dream.
About her, the fireflies flitted up here and there, their little bulbous butts flashing love songs to one another. As she walked, Wachiwa became less aware of the fireflies, and more aware of the stars, finally coming to a rest beneath the great crab apple tree marking part of their lands; a landmark she always looked for when lost. And tonight she was lost.
Unfortunately, it was a lost no magical direction tree could ever fix. She sprawled out first on her stomach, then on her side, stretching out legs till joints faithfully popped, and muscles felt better, then went limp simply for the sake of going limp. She sighed to herself. And then spoke softly to nothing and no one except maybe the casual cast of fireflies overhead.
"Mother, father, I know you're listening. I know Wya and Haht are, too. You're always here, to watch us and guide us, like you always said you'd be. I could use a little guidance now," she sighs softly.
"My heart is broken.. I miss Wya and Haht so badly. They took care of me after you guys were gone, Mumsy, Pop-cicle. And worse yet is the look in the faces of their babies when they wake in the day to me being there; first they're sleepy, and happy and then they realize.. it's not mommy.. and they realize Mommy and daddy will never be back.. and.."
"... And is bringing puppies into the world so good a thing, when such horrible things like this can happen? At first, playing with Ikuna and Tala, I like, so wanted puppies. But I also have to remember what Mori did, and feel like I need to be honorable in his stead. And .. And I can't just back out on Shawnee and Skahla and leave them to take care of Ikuna and Tala, c'os right now they can't even figure out how they're supposed to take care of a pack!"
The whimsical she-wolf sighs, rolling to her back. "And then there's other problems... Asku.. Oh, Mummy, I love Asku, but I'm just not /in/ love with him as much as I thought. And I'm afraid it might break his heart to know I'm kinda starting to like Tokota. Like, LIKE like, not just like. He's a nice guy, and he's so scared of being beat up, I feel like Tokota could use some nice touches, and some cuddling, you know?"
"I just wish.. I just wish I knew what to gosh darn make of all this mess. Maybe.. Maybe I should just put love matters like finding a mate and stuff, on hold, till Ikuna and Tala are old enough that they won't need me to chew up their meat for them, or to sleep next to them at night." Chewy sighed a bit then, and then rolled back to her belly, laying her head on her paws. "There'll always be time for mates.. But making sure these pups live.. It's like.. Like I made a promise, and I gotta keep promises!"
The weary, wembling wolfess heaves another sigh, and then tilts her head to look down upon the land below, the den site, and her home. The home she had once thought about leaving so she could see the world. The home she now felt like she could never leave because of duty. Eyes became heavy as she tried to piece these things out.
"... I'm glad they didn't choose me to be an Alpha... I could never do it.. And I hope Skahla and Shawnee don't want me to be a even that's too much responsibility."
As her eyes fluttered, she wafted into a dream; and in the dream she found herself wandering, as she had, so many times before, often wandered. But it was not among the pack lands that she found herself, by instead of a land just beyond, to the south. Into a desert, Wachiwa wandered in her dream, and it seemed to go on for days before she finally reached an oasis.
She dipped her head for the cool forgiving water, and was abruptly brought out of refreshment by a voice. She jumped and looked, to find that standing before her was a wolf of great size; visibly non-corporeal, and colored of white, with two bright patches of starlight about his eyes in a mask. "Forgive me, Grandfather, I did not mean to trespass!" Wachiwa yelped in surprise.
"Child, you come here troubled; as so often many do. Your heart is heavy, and with it, your soul is weighed down." The great Wolf Spirit said.
With a sigh, Chewy sand exhausted to the sands, "Yes, Grandfather, I am weary. I just want to rest a while. I want to go back to when there weren't so many decisions to be made."
"Alas, Child, this is the trial all my children must face before they meet their end and come to live with me among the stars. You must make your own decisions on what to do... But if I can try to ease your conscious, I may offer some words."
"Speak, Grandfather, speak!"
"There is a time for everything, and to everything a time. The puppies you watch over now will soon be independent, and will not need you as much. When they are, others may take over the duty of babysitting. Your wisdom-"
"Oh, but I'm not wise!" Wachiwa protested.
"... Your WISDOM," the WolfGod continued, with a faint, knowing smile crossing his face, "Will be needed for other things. As will your your greatest strength of all: Your heart. The easiest way to help your family.. is to be there for them. I cannot say what little ways, for that would be cheating. But... just do what you do best, and be yourself. In this way, you will aid your family the best of all."
"Be myself..? Do my best?" Wachiwa asked, peering at the wolf before her incredulously. "But how does that help anything?"
"... Seems to me," The Grandfather said, "You're helping two puppies get over the loss of their parents... you're helping your sister and her mate to believe in themselves by showing them you believe in them as well... You're helping the pack by taking the former burden off their paws, and easing the latter."
".. Oooooohhh... So.. All I gotta do is just.. keep loving and tolerating people?"
"Yeeup."
"Well then, I'm gonna love and tolerate the poopy out of them!" Wachiwa's tail wagged and the Alpha and Omega looked at her with amusement, shaking his head, before he turned, and disappeared in a languid walk into the desert.
A crack of noise awoke Wachiwa with a start-- but to her relief it was only a stray raccoon come to steal away with the half chewed scraps of a rotten apple. She snorted a breath of thought, and then stood, starting back for home, mulling over the strange dream in her head.
"... I guess there's one in every family... and gosh darn it, I'm it."
With Ikuna and Tala safe within the den (as it seems to have fallen upon Wachiwa to take care of the more motherly tasks of story telling, bath time, chewing their food up for them before they eat, and all of that), chewy made her way out of it into the night, and started walking, thoughtfully, never quite venturing to the borders of the Ute Lands, yet.. just walking, perhaps in half a dream.
About her, the fireflies flitted up here and there, their little bulbous butts flashing love songs to one another. As she walked, Wachiwa became less aware of the fireflies, and more aware of the stars, finally coming to a rest beneath the great crab apple tree marking part of their lands; a landmark she always looked for when lost. And tonight she was lost.
Unfortunately, it was a lost no magical direction tree could ever fix. She sprawled out first on her stomach, then on her side, stretching out legs till joints faithfully popped, and muscles felt better, then went limp simply for the sake of going limp. She sighed to herself. And then spoke softly to nothing and no one except maybe the casual cast of fireflies overhead.
"Mother, father, I know you're listening. I know Wya and Haht are, too. You're always here, to watch us and guide us, like you always said you'd be. I could use a little guidance now," she sighs softly.
"My heart is broken.. I miss Wya and Haht so badly. They took care of me after you guys were gone, Mumsy, Pop-cicle. And worse yet is the look in the faces of their babies when they wake in the day to me being there; first they're sleepy, and happy and then they realize.. it's not mommy.. and they realize Mommy and daddy will never be back.. and.."
"... And is bringing puppies into the world so good a thing, when such horrible things like this can happen? At first, playing with Ikuna and Tala, I like, so wanted puppies. But I also have to remember what Mori did, and feel like I need to be honorable in his stead. And .. And I can't just back out on Shawnee and Skahla and leave them to take care of Ikuna and Tala, c'os right now they can't even figure out how they're supposed to take care of a pack!"
The whimsical she-wolf sighs, rolling to her back. "And then there's other problems... Asku.. Oh, Mummy, I love Asku, but I'm just not /in/ love with him as much as I thought. And I'm afraid it might break his heart to know I'm kinda starting to like Tokota. Like, LIKE like, not just like. He's a nice guy, and he's so scared of being beat up, I feel like Tokota could use some nice touches, and some cuddling, you know?"
"I just wish.. I just wish I knew what to gosh darn make of all this mess. Maybe.. Maybe I should just put love matters like finding a mate and stuff, on hold, till Ikuna and Tala are old enough that they won't need me to chew up their meat for them, or to sleep next to them at night." Chewy sighed a bit then, and then rolled back to her belly, laying her head on her paws. "There'll always be time for mates.. But making sure these pups live.. It's like.. Like I made a promise, and I gotta keep promises!"
The weary, wembling wolfess heaves another sigh, and then tilts her head to look down upon the land below, the den site, and her home. The home she had once thought about leaving so she could see the world. The home she now felt like she could never leave because of duty. Eyes became heavy as she tried to piece these things out.
"... I'm glad they didn't choose me to be an Alpha... I could never do it.. And I hope Skahla and Shawnee don't want me to be a even that's too much responsibility."
As her eyes fluttered, she wafted into a dream; and in the dream she found herself wandering, as she had, so many times before, often wandered. But it was not among the pack lands that she found herself, by instead of a land just beyond, to the south. Into a desert, Wachiwa wandered in her dream, and it seemed to go on for days before she finally reached an oasis.
She dipped her head for the cool forgiving water, and was abruptly brought out of refreshment by a voice. She jumped and looked, to find that standing before her was a wolf of great size; visibly non-corporeal, and colored of white, with two bright patches of starlight about his eyes in a mask. "Forgive me, Grandfather, I did not mean to trespass!" Wachiwa yelped in surprise.
"Child, you come here troubled; as so often many do. Your heart is heavy, and with it, your soul is weighed down." The great Wolf Spirit said.
With a sigh, Chewy sand exhausted to the sands, "Yes, Grandfather, I am weary. I just want to rest a while. I want to go back to when there weren't so many decisions to be made."
"Alas, Child, this is the trial all my children must face before they meet their end and come to live with me among the stars. You must make your own decisions on what to do... But if I can try to ease your conscious, I may offer some words."
"Speak, Grandfather, speak!"
"There is a time for everything, and to everything a time. The puppies you watch over now will soon be independent, and will not need you as much. When they are, others may take over the duty of babysitting. Your wisdom-"
"Oh, but I'm not wise!" Wachiwa protested.
"... Your WISDOM," the WolfGod continued, with a faint, knowing smile crossing his face, "Will be needed for other things. As will your your greatest strength of all: Your heart. The easiest way to help your family.. is to be there for them. I cannot say what little ways, for that would be cheating. But... just do what you do best, and be yourself. In this way, you will aid your family the best of all."
"Be myself..? Do my best?" Wachiwa asked, peering at the wolf before her incredulously. "But how does that help anything?"
"... Seems to me," The Grandfather said, "You're helping two puppies get over the loss of their parents... you're helping your sister and her mate to believe in themselves by showing them you believe in them as well... You're helping the pack by taking the former burden off their paws, and easing the latter."
".. Oooooohhh... So.. All I gotta do is just.. keep loving and tolerating people?"
"Yeeup."
"Well then, I'm gonna love and tolerate the poopy out of them!" Wachiwa's tail wagged and the Alpha and Omega looked at her with amusement, shaking his head, before he turned, and disappeared in a languid walk into the desert.
A crack of noise awoke Wachiwa with a start-- but to her relief it was only a stray raccoon come to steal away with the half chewed scraps of a rotten apple. She snorted a breath of thought, and then stood, starting back for home, mulling over the strange dream in her head.
"... I guess there's one in every family... and gosh darn it, I'm it."